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A note from KellyGoVols

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>Date: Mon, 9 Jun 2003 20:46:50 EDT
>From: <KellyGoVols@aol.com>  
>Subject: at-l list   
>To: greyowl@rcn.com
>
>   Thank you again for your kind email.  I really do
>   appreciate it.  I would also like to ask you for
>   another favor, and forward the following to the
>   list, If you do that for me, I'll owe you big time:
>
>   Hi everyone!  I miss you guys already, and have
>   resorted to reading SPAM, for the love of throwing
>   things.  I want to thank everyone for their kind
>   emails, and let ya'll know that I'm taking a "break"
>   from the list, and concentrating on ME right now. 
>   The day following my "psycho-post" I did what any
>   depressed girl would do.  I went shopping.  Yes, I
>   bought FOUR DVDs, and promptly watched all of them,
>   one about six times, since it was also on Pay Per
>   View (boy, that pissed me off...)  I also bought two
>   books (the Red Tent, recommended to me by Liteshoe
>   and the The False Sense of Well Being).  I also
>   purchased the new Madonna CD (kinda crappy) and some
>   Pepsi and chips. I bought a straightening iron for
>   my hair (my hair IS straight... don't ask, I don't
>   know, I just didn't have one). I bought some girlie
>   spa products, but I did stop short of the facial
>   humidifier.  Hell, even I can boil water... 
>
>   I also want to apologize for venting to the list. 
>   Certainly inappropriate, but I'm not exactly the
>   epitome of appropriateness.  At lease that post was
>   actually MEANT for the list.
>
>   I'm feeling much better, having dropped $130 and not
>   feeling a darn bit guilty about it.  Additionally, I
>   just found out I'll be spending some time in
>   Tennessee. Rogersville to be exact.  My ex-boyfriend
>   Gary, who is good friends with The Boy and I, owns a
>   golf course up there, and has invited us to come and
>   stay for a while.  Rogersville is a hop, skip and
>   jump from my home town of Kingsport, so I'll be able
>   to visit family.  The best part?  It's just a little
>   hop, skip and jump and a jog from the AT!  Since the
>   boy doesn't hike, and will have Gary to entertain
>   him, I will be able to get away ALONE, and go
>   hiking.  Even if it's just an overnighter or even a
>   day hike.  Going to Tennessee will get me out of
>   Florida for a while, and the heat that goes with
>   it.  I just pray a hurricane doesn't strike while
>   I'm there.  I don't know which is worse, being OUT
>   of town during a hurricane and worrying about family
>   and friends, or actually sitting THROUGH one. 
>   Anyway, Red, look out!  I'm coming to visit, and
>   taking you OUT, girl! 
>
>   Alas, I had a heart to heart with The Boy.  He
>   really is my best friend.  I thought that us buying
>   a house would forever put my thru-hike on hold. 
>   However, he admonished me for such thinking, saying
>   that he could never ask me to give up such a dream. 
>   He agreed that once my credit card bill is paid off,
>   and I had saved half of what I thought I would need
>   for a thru, he would foot the bill for the other
>   half, and make my car payments for me while I was
>   gone.  My part of the deal is that I have to WRITE
>   ABOUT IT.  No problem.  I may even forgo a journal
>   and save it for a book.  Hell, if Bryson can do it,
>   so can I.  And, if it don't get published, then what
>   the hell?  I'll just force it on the list.  So
>   there.
>
>   As far as work goes, well, I get paid good money, I
>   have good bennies, and I only have to do it until I
>   leave for my thru.  There's an incentive, right? 
>   After that, who knows?  Maybe I'll get published and
>   I'll become rich, and The Boy and I can retire and
>   live anywhere I want (that's our deal, we live and
>   work in Florida now, and I get to pick our
>   retirement town).  Look out, North Carolina!  Maybe
>   I'll go back to school, maybe I'll groom dogs, maybe
>   I'll design a line of hiking lingerie.  I think a
>   long walk in the woods will help me figure it all
>   out, maybe not.  I do know, however, that going back
>   into law is NOT an option.
>
>   I've also decided to weed out the "toxic"
>   relationships in my life.  Quality over quantity is
>   best when dealing with people.  I'm tired of
>   surrounding myself with morons.
>
>   I've also decided to stop worrying about the past. 
>   I mean really, what's the freaking point?  You can't
>   change it!  And, I'm going to focus on the future
>   without stressing about it, but I'm not going to let
>   it stop me from living in the moment. 
>
>   Anyway, ME, ME, ME, OINK!  God, I feel like such a
>   pig, like this is all about ME.  It is, and I'm
>   sorry.  I won't bother you kind folks with it
>   again.  I do, however, want to say how extremely
>   amazed I am in this list and the people I've come to
>   know.  The emails I received brought tears to my
>   eyes, and I can't thank you all enough for your
>   thoughtful responses. It has restored my faith in
>   humankind, which is part of what I needed.  You
>   folks have proven to be better friends than a lot of
>   the other people that I considered my friends for
>   years.  Really.  Hence the weeding out process that
>   has begun. 
>
>   Anyway, in closing, I'll be back in town on July
>   9th, and I'll rejoin the list then, hopefully with a
>   very witty and literate trip report.  If anyone is
>   in the NE Tennessee area and wants to get together
>   sometime around between June 30th and July 8th, let
>   me know.  It'll be great to finally meet some
>   listers face to face. 
>
>   Again, folks, thank you from the bottom of my
>   heart. 
>
>   KellyGoVols