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Re: [at-l] Where do you feel most spiritual?

> --- Eric Primack <eap0758@garnet.acns.fsu.edu> wrote:
> > where do you feel most spiritual, and why?
> 1) Alone? Moving? Then hiking/running through tall, thick, dark, mossy,
> ferny, forest -- probably hemlock, even though I LOVE the fragrance of
> spruce/fir/BALSAM. Best connection to "earth."
> 2) Alone? Not Moving? Then sitting up in the direct warmth of first
> light/sunrise. (Perhaps out of the breeze, in the back of a leanto...)
> connection to "God."
> 3) Not Alone? Then holding one (or both) of my children while they're
> sleeping. Best connection to "humanity."
> On that last one, I held my son Cole for two weeks once, 23 hours a day,
in a
> wooden rocking chair in a toddler ICU. Cole had a nasty go with
> Syncicial(?) Virus ("RSV") badly enough that at 19 months old, he was back
> 100% O2 and nearly intubated/medicated/respirated. (His lungs simply did
> want to carry the load that they were presented, and he worked his chest
> mightily to keep up -- on the order of 100 breaths per minutes (and more).
> figure he ran, at one point, 4 marathons in 2 days. My God.) For Cole to
> meant watching his O2 plummet and his CO2 jump, and all he wanted was to
> held and to sleep. Anything else was presented with a breathy-soft version
> a 19 month old's no: "newwww." "Would you like some ice cream?" "Newwww."
> "TV?" "Newwww." The answer seemed easy enough to me: cry: bad; hold: good.
> I held him! Through aching shoulders, square butt-cheeks, numbed legs,
> rushed/infrequent showers, DAYS of subsisting on bagels, and a neck
> permanently wrenched from craning to watch a TV up too high and on too
> softly.
> But I was a happy man to all of humanity, I'll tell ya. Some of it was
> because I was *not* watching my son slowly die, sure. {Ugh.} But a *bunch*
> it was being charged by gravity with supporting a sleeping human life --
> embodyment of promise and innocence.
> Have just an outrageously humane day.
> Sloetoe
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